ENTRY ONE (10/3/25)

Last night I thought of her as a child and cried, which is stupid because I didn't even know her less than a year ago. She's been ruined by this horrible world, and I don't know if she'll ever get better. If I'm being honest, she's hurt me. Not because she's trying to, but because I'm just a sensitive loser who can't handle people I love being in pain. I just want her to get better, but I'm scared that'll never happen. I just love her so much. I want everyone who wronged her to feel the pain she's feeling instead of her. Double it and give it to the next person or something like that.

I just want things to be ok, for me and for her. I want to ruin the life of the man who ruined hers. I want her to be happy. I want her to be happy. That is all I want. Please, God, let me have something for once. Sorry to make the first blog post so negative. A lot of them will probably be like this...

ENTRY TWO (10/13/25)

End of the term has been stressful. I'm almost 100% sure I'm not gonna pass Jewelery, because the teacher is psycho and moves on wayy to fast and tries to make sure everything is perfect, even though its literally an elective class. I'm probably gonna drop it next term. But thr good news is: I'm seeing MCR next year! Specifically in Denver, CO. I'm so exicted, they're one of my favorite bands! Speaking of music, me and my friend are planning on starting a band. I'm trying to get my other friend Amy to join and be bass and backup vocals, but she's really busy, so that sucks. Bassists are hard to find. Maybe I'll just learn it, I play guitar so it can't be too hard. But I doubt my parents will by me one and I don't have a job yet.

I got my learners permit last week, I'm really proud of myself, even though I barely passed lol. I'm too scared to even drive though what if I crash!!!!!!!!! anyways, I also got a new vanity. I can finally but my makeup somewhere! Yay! I'm writing this at school and I'm just so excited to go home and decorate it. Speaking of school, it hasn't been going so great. I don't think the new friends I made like me very much, and like I said, I'm failing jewelry... But it's fine, I'll be fine lol.